AND I CALL MYSELF A WOMBMAN by Nekhena Evans, Sacred Woman Initiate
How can I become a “Wombman”
when I don’t know my womb?
I have never had a conversation with my womb
so how can I consider myself a Wombman?
I have been with you…grown with you,
been through Rites of Passage with you
from childhood, to adolescence, to adulthood, and yet…
I have never had a conversation with you.
You have been a victim. A consequence to an action.
A symptom of a disease.
An effect of my action.
I have never spoken to you. Consulted with you.
Inquired of you. Cared for you.
Or understood you.
and I call myself a grown Wombman.
Where have I grown? How could I have grown without talking to you?
Without acknowledging your presence and your works?
And I call myself a Wombman
I have put you through dozens of men…
alien spirits/being/entities…of all dimensions,
from all places and stations.
I have created and destroyed babies through you.
I have fed you all kinds of poisons, thereby creating diseases-
fibroids, tumors, cysts and the like.
I have sexually abused you, thereby creating sexually transmitted disease…
infections of all types, itching…burning…hurting…PAIN!
I have used you for my own purposes…
money, favors, alleged self-esteem, beauty, clothing, food.
I have allowed men to probe you,
doctors to drug you, while I held you down.
If I had known someone who had done all these things
I would call them the names I despise most-
Yes, I would…
Time to release. RELEASE.RELEASE.
FORGIVE ME.FORGIVE ME. FORGIVE ME.
I am complete.
I will be responsible for you, for myself…for my womb.
We are in a relationship together.
We have been from the very, very beginning.
I will commune and communicate with you.
I will listen to you.
I will wash, cleanse, and purify you.
I will pay attention to your patterns, your moods, yours signs and wonders.
I will….I will…I will…become the Wombman that you made
me from the beginning.